The Reason

     

Well, after hibernating for almost more than 2 months during my end semester holiday, I finally decided to blog again. Well, I feel like it's my first entries ever since. 

     It's a new semester again and I can be considered as senior undergraduate since I'm in the fourth year now. But I just have to swallow the fact that there's still a very, very long way to go. To be honest, I felt the exam really make me tired, and it's cruel. It became really cruel sometimes. Our original batch became smaller in number since some just give up along the way, and some unable to make it to next year because of failing in exam. It's cruel, right?

     Sure, things happen for a reason. That's the probably the most positive words so that I would feel at ease. I may not know the exact feeling for those who failed and I'll be a liar if I say " It's okay, I understand how you feel..." because I haven't experienced  it. However, failing it's not the end of your life. To think about it again, failing is better than dying right?

     I used to fail certain things in my life and I thought it's better as you know how to stand up again. In this real world, we can never turn back the time. Oh, forget a little bit about the current addiction to Rooftop Prince when you can travel 300 years. When you failed, you can change it when you re-do it or stand up again, but when you lost someone that will never be back, it's the fact that you can't change. My older sister passed away at young age,and I regretted every moment I didn't spend time with her. I wished I could care more for her but she's gone. And I can't never change the fact. Yeah, she went so soon. 

    But what can I do is moving forward and I just can pray for her. Life goes on. Yeah, people die- everyone has to die anyway and you won't know when will be the time for you. It may be tomorrow, or when you're old. Who knows? Things do happen and what's the most important is to embrace the life you live in, love people around you as it were your last or his/her last. You can do anything that you want because the choice is in your hands. Live peacefully and die peacefully. 

Maybe I should stop for now. Anyway sometimes, I write nonsense too. No offense.